[ is the first thing reki makes sure that he says. all right, yeah, he's irrefutably guilty when it comes to taking all those compliments kojiro lobs his way and brushing them aside in favor of more insidious trains of thought—but he listens to the other stuff. the stuff kojiro says that's about the hurt he holds inside of him. which is the problem.
he sighs, looking down at kojiro's handsome face, taking time to trace the strong line of his jaw, his thumb passing over his cheek before his other finger comes around to pinch it. ]
It's too late, anyway. I don't wanna lie and say I don't want you, but I didn't wanna hurt you either, and now there's nothing we can do.
[ if anything, reki should be the one on his knees. but if the world made sense, none of these kind and brilliant, talented and deserving people would bother with him at all. they'd find someone uncomplicated and easy and live a life of comfort and stability. but no, they just keep coming for reki like it's not going to end in disaster.
the least he can do is slide down the door he's leaning against, looping his thin arms over kojiro's broad shoulders. if it was anyone else, maybe, he'd run like he always does, but holding on to kojiro like this is the one place he feels safe, no matter what happened today. ]
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[ is the first thing reki makes sure that he says. all right, yeah, he's irrefutably guilty when it comes to taking all those compliments kojiro lobs his way and brushing them aside in favor of more insidious trains of thought—but he listens to the other stuff. the stuff kojiro says that's about the hurt he holds inside of him. which is the problem.
he sighs, looking down at kojiro's handsome face, taking time to trace the strong line of his jaw, his thumb passing over his cheek before his other finger comes around to pinch it. ]
It's too late, anyway. I don't wanna lie and say I don't want you, but I didn't wanna hurt you either, and now there's nothing we can do.
[ if anything, reki should be the one on his knees. but if the world made sense, none of these kind and brilliant, talented and deserving people would bother with him at all. they'd find someone uncomplicated and easy and live a life of comfort and stability. but no, they just keep coming for reki like it's not going to end in disaster.
the least he can do is slide down the door he's leaning against, looping his thin arms over kojiro's broad shoulders. if it was anyone else, maybe, he'd run like he always does, but holding on to kojiro like this is the one place he feels safe, no matter what happened today. ]
I'm gonna fuck this up so bad.