namely, this should have been a conversation. not that he would've refused staying with kaoru on a more permanent basis, and kaoru damn well figured that into whatever nightmare calculations he's tabulating across the Sakurayashiki Chessboard of Life. but the illusion of choice is important sometimes. makes the difference between a smooth transition and strong-arming. ergo, grievances.
kojiro's got a full tote on his bike and a pack on his back when he pulls up to kaoru's place. there's a kind of vulnerability in showing up like this mid-morning. maybe that was all part of kaoru's plan too, like he can just shame kojiro into staying if he makes sure all the neighbors watch him moving in. but kojiro hauls the tote in over one shoulder, slams it onto the genkan floor as soon as the door is closed behind him. it lands with a clatter, because he's long-maligned kaoru's kitchenware choices, and like hell is he staying here without his pots and pans and utensils. ]
[It's not like Kaoru wanted it to go like this. He maybe would have asked Kojiro to move in with him earlier. Yes, he had the plan to pop the question and talk about it maybe he totally planned it yes. It just happened that whenever it crossed his mind he just picked up a shirt, underwear, another pair of underwear, some socks, the necklace and somehow the question never got asked...
Now it kind of happened and Kojiro is on his way to move in. To really move in and Kaoru's first reaction is a triumphant smirk. So it all worked out anyway without the embarrassment of asking the question. When he hears the bike he moves to welcome the stupid gorilla into his home.
And then Kojiro gets inside and he has all his stuff with him. Kaoru still feels the happy butterflies in his stomach... which turn into something icier the moment he hears the pants and pots land on the floor. Because he had never thought about what if Kojiro wouldn't want to live with him for too long.]
Wonderful, your toothbrush is in the bathroom. You know the way.
[ the backpack lands next to the tote while kojiro's wrestling his boots off. definitely not all his stuff; he has an entire apartment's worth of shit to haul over here if he's staying permanently, not to mention the stuff they'll need to parse through and condense where they're doubled up. this is just the most important stuff. the essential threads to start weaving their lives together.
but if kaoru really wants him here, he's not getting away with not asking properly. so the second he's within reach, kojiro hooks an arm around kaoru's waist, to tug him close and push their foreheads together. ]
This is important. If there's something you want me to do here, you're gonna ask me right.
[Kaoru moves into Kojiro at the touch all too familiar. His heart skips a beat he is desperately trying to hide.]
What? Do you want flowers, cake, wine? A celebration or something?
[Though, yes, he gets it. There are traditions, and there are things they must talk about. Things that need to be said out loud. They learned that the hard way after all. And this is just as important for Kaoru as for Kojiro.
So he slides his hand on the arm that holds him hostage, pressing against Kojiro just a bit as he is eying his neckline.]
I just wanted you to move in with me.
[Right, Kaoru feels now why he dreaded to ask the question out loud. God, it's harder than it sounds. It's more loaded.]
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namely, this should have been a conversation. not that he would've refused staying with kaoru on a more permanent basis, and kaoru damn well figured that into whatever nightmare calculations he's tabulating across the Sakurayashiki Chessboard of Life. but the illusion of choice is important sometimes. makes the difference between a smooth transition and strong-arming. ergo, grievances.
kojiro's got a full tote on his bike and a pack on his back when he pulls up to kaoru's place. there's a kind of vulnerability in showing up like this mid-morning. maybe that was all part of kaoru's plan too, like he can just shame kojiro into staying if he makes sure all the neighbors watch him moving in. but kojiro hauls the tote in over one shoulder, slams it onto the genkan floor as soon as the door is closed behind him. it lands with a clatter, because he's long-maligned kaoru's kitchenware choices, and like hell is he staying here without his pots and pans and utensils. ]
I'm here to stay, you ornery bitch.
[ ...doesn't sound super mad about it though. ]
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Now it kind of happened and Kojiro is on his way to move in. To really move in and Kaoru's first reaction is a triumphant smirk. So it all worked out anyway without the embarrassment of asking the question. When he hears the bike he moves to welcome the stupid gorilla into his home.
And then Kojiro gets inside and he has all his stuff with him. Kaoru still feels the happy butterflies in his stomach... which turn into something icier the moment he hears the pants and pots land on the floor. Because he had never thought about what if Kojiro wouldn't want to live with him for too long.]
Wonderful, your toothbrush is in the bathroom. You know the way.
[He answers as if it's the most natural thing.]
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[ the backpack lands next to the tote while kojiro's wrestling his boots off. definitely not all his stuff; he has an entire apartment's worth of shit to haul over here if he's staying permanently, not to mention the stuff they'll need to parse through and condense where they're doubled up. this is just the most important stuff. the essential threads to start weaving their lives together.
but if kaoru really wants him here, he's not getting away with not asking properly. so the second he's within reach, kojiro hooks an arm around kaoru's waist, to tug him close and push their foreheads together. ]
This is important. If there's something you want me to do here, you're gonna ask me right.
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What? Do you want flowers, cake, wine? A celebration or something?
[Though, yes, he gets it. There are traditions, and there are things they must talk about. Things that need to be said out loud. They learned that the hard way after all. And this is just as important for Kaoru as for Kojiro.
So he slides his hand on the arm that holds him hostage, pressing against Kojiro just a bit as he is eying his neckline.]
I just wanted you to move in with me.
[Right, Kaoru feels now why he dreaded to ask the question out loud. God, it's harder than it sounds. It's more loaded.]