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I said it's nothing bad!

but where do you see us in five years?

[ Fuck, that sounds too much like they're having a job interview. ]

I mean where do you see us going? do you want more than what we have right now?

If it's something you're too scared to talk about in person, it feels bad. Unless we literally go somewhere outside of Japan, I can't imagine having anything more.

I don't mean physically going, I mean

[ UGHHHHHHH. ]

Would you seriously want to get married

Like if I proposed to you, is that something you'd wanna do?

it's okay if you don't. like if that's not how you want your life to go. I just don't wanna surprise you with it and make you feel obligated to say yes

if I do it, I want you to want it too

Edited 2022-06-15 17:20 (UTC)

[ This is cruel for so many reasons. The fact that Kojiro is bringing up marriage for the first time through a message, and that he was too scared to do it any other way. ]

That's what I meant about needing to literally go outside of Japan. We're as close to married as we can get, but we can't make it official here... Of course I would. If you asked, and not through a message. You need to beg at this point, though, because you brought it up like this of all ways.

I'm not proposing to you now!

I'm just asking if you'd be OK with it if I did!

all the articles I read about it say we need to have a conversation to make sure that's what we both want, like it shouldn't be something spontaneous

and we can go to Naha or Urasoe to get a partnership certificate

I know it's not the same but we can still have a ceremony and stuff

Why couldn't you ask me to my face?! We could have had the conversation in person, what is there to be nervous about? I've already said you're mine for life!! I want to be married for real, even if it's in another country. We can get the partnership for legal bullshit here, but... I want it all.

I tried to

I really did but I couldn't say it, I just kept imagining you laughing at me or blowing me off

I know it doesn't make sense, I'm sorry

[ It takes a while for Kaoru to respond this time. ]

I'm sorry if I've ever made you feel like I would laugh at you for something like this. I know we bicker, but I don't want you to think I would be genuinely cruel to you, or that I don't care deeply about you.

I know that

I was just tripping myself up, it's not your fault

this was important though, so I figured this was probably better than not talking about it at all

where would you wanna go?

it's not legal in Italy either

could do france...?

Can we not discuss the specifics just yet? I'm

[ He means to backspace but shaky fingers send the message instead. ]

I just want to think about getting married and not the bigotry we have to work around.