[Kaoru is used to treading the psychological minefield of words like "pretty" and "princess" and "sweetheart," answering them with expressions of practiced exasperation and disdain. But Kojiro has never pulled a petname on him like that with such warm sincerity in his voice. Kaoru's breath catches.
He almost wants to argue, because it would be easy and familiar. He has no idea how to navigate Kojiro taking responsibility for everything, or gently asking for permission to do everything Kaoru never let himself hope for. That seems like a major oversight now--not at least considering a possibility, no matter how slim, no matter how much it made his chest ache. At least he'd maybe he could have been able to feel less clumsy working a hand between their bodies to touch Kojiro's erection through fabric that feels so, so thin.]
Of course I want you, idiot.
[Then again, maybe Kaoru is the idiot whose toes are curling just from touching a dick for two seconds. And for letting Kojiro go on and on like every bit of the responsibility is his own.
But that's a matter for later. No more thinking. Just expressing pent-up desire through panting breaths and careful strokes of fingers pressed tight between the two of them.]
[ No room for misinterpretation there. Kaoru wants him. Kaoru's touching him. And despite Kojiro's general philosophy about love and seduction, it's a little different when it involves Kaoru. In large part, Kojiro's still suspending his disbelief; still struggling to convince himself that this decade-old achy, yearning want is finally blooming in his lap, and the shock is lending him a degree of caution.
Or appreciation. The need tightens in him, winds lower with every pass of Kaoru's hand over his cock. The harder he gets, the more evident it becomes that Kojiro is well-proportioned, thick and stiff in Kaoru's grip, practically throbbing already through the pleasured sigh that he breathes against Kaoru's chest. The sensation pushes through him so softly, arrests his thought, stills his breath, and--
Fuck, he wanted to take his time and enjoy this, but that's quickly turning into a non-option. He needs Kaoru, now. And if this is happening, it's not happening on the fucking couch. ]
Hold on to me, gorgeous.
[ Kojiro doesn't wait for Kaoru to react. He hooks a forearm under Kaoru's ass, and lifts him along when he stands from the couch. Then it's down the hall, to the bedroom, where Kojiro lowers Kaoru to the end of his bed, and drops to his knees on the floor in front of him. It's like fire and ice between them, cooling one moment only to fan to inferno the next. Like now, with Kojiro reclaiming his lips like they're breath, like they're life, invading Kaoru's mouth with his tongue, and guiding Kaoru's hips up to pull away his briefs with both hands. ]
[It seems that Kaoru can fling all the insults he wants, and just get more terms of endearment in return. That’s a nice little compromise to all of the control he’s (albeit willingly) giving up here; it certainly feels like he’s winning something.
Especially because, if there was some small part of Kaoru that was also doubting whether this is too good to be true, it’s blown out of the water when he can feel for himself the way Kojiro is reacting. It’s not like that big stupid gorgeous oversized body can lie.
Pout and protest as he might about being manhandled and carried(he is capable of waking, thank you very much!), he still lets himself be deposited on the bed, still shifts to let Kojiro lay him bare as he gets every bit of breath kissed out of him. More things that he can blame on the wine later, even though said wine isn’t preventing him from being so hard that it aches. Nor from spreading his legs before he knows what he’s doing. Okay, so maybe it’s been a while, so sue him.]
[ Kaoru can be as pliant or as reticent as he wants about this; he won't catch Kojiro saying a damn thing about it. Touching Kaoru is too much of a thrill, and Kojiro's happy for anything Kaoru will give to him. He's too good, too sweet; he tastes like he belongs to Kojiro, and Kojiro has wanted this for far too long. He'll follow Kaoru's lead, and Kaoru said he wants him, so--
Kaoru gets what Kaoru wants, and it's Kojiro's pleasure to give it. But it's too good to rush, and Kojiro sits back when he drops Kaoru's briefs to the floor. He has to take a second to drink this in, to take in every piece of Kaoru he's never been allowed to admire before. Jesus, he's fucking beautiful. Work of art, statuesque on Kojiro's bedcovers. Kojiro's fixated on the aesthetic of his hands on Kaoru's body, strong and dark against the pale perfection. They wander over the new territory, staking their own claim, touching Kaoru with careful hands and greedy eyes. ]
Kaoru... you're more beautiful than I imagined.
[ The words bring a hot flush to Kojiro's face, and there's something so satisfying about that. A rosy blush that only darkens when his lips shower kiss after kiss down Kaoru's chin, down his throat, to his chest, and then drift to distraction at Kaoru's nipples. His teeth catch across one, tease with his lips and then worry between a bite until it hardens, and he's satisfied to move across to the other. ]
I thought about this. About how I'd make you feel good, if you ever let me. Did you think about it?
[ A question like this, as Kojiro pushes a hand between Kaoru's legs, and thick fingers curl around Kaoru's cock. ]
WELCOME BACK this was so delightful to see in my inbox =']
[This is almost surreal. Kojiro and those big, soulful, heavily-lidded eyes of his... they're just so damn expressive, and Kaoru reads both hunger and adoration in them. His childhood friend who seems to spend so much time prodding and trying to get a rise out of him, and he's capable of looking at Kaoru like this? Really?
He flushes hot at the compliment, and even hotter at Kojiro working his mouth over sensitive nipples. It makes him gasp and arch his back. Oh god, Kojiro is going to uncover every weakness too quickly. Kaoru is in such deep trouble. Absolutely done for.]
How could--ah! How... could I think about it? [His thoughts are scattered, fragmented. He can't gather them enough to consider whether maybe he shouldn't be this honest.] I didn't want to think about what you could do. I didn't want to think about what you might be doing to someone else.
[But Kojiro did. He imagined doing this... when? It always seemed like he had plenty of distractions. One outlet after another for those sorts of thoughts. Where in all of that was Kaoru?]
[ Where Kaoru was, in all that, was firmly occupying every corner of Kojiro's great, big heart. Distractions were all well and good, and maybe Kojiro had plenty of them. But as much as he gave of his body, his heart and his soul still stayed in Kaoru's hands. There came a point when he just had to accept it; to acknowledge that he'd never love anyone the way he loves Kaoru, and embrace the burden that came with it.
And too much came with it: memory and regret and fantasy, all heavy and heart-rending and achy. What Kojiro imagined was always nebulous; fragments of need, broken and lacking for all that his memory couldn't supply, and they don't measure up. Not to this. Not to the addictive responsiveness of Kaoru's body, or the sweet music of his quiet gasping, or the unparalleled softness of his skin under Kojiro's touch. So maybe he doesn't have a good imagination, because this feels decadent, and Kojiro's indulging in as much as Kaoru will allow him.
But that admission-- It's hard to hear. That Kaoru was aching for him just as much -- that Kojiro caused some of that hurt -- is altogether too gravid to brush off. He reaches up to cradle Kaoru's chin in one hand, guides him down so he can catch his gaze and hold it, even while his other hand languidly strokes Kaoru's cock. ]
You have me now. Okay? Hundred percent. I'm here. We're here. I'm yours.
[ Kojiro's grip is hot and tight around Kaoru's arousal. Steady; a slow caress from hilt to head and back again, toying with different angles and pressures until he can find the one that makes Kaoru gasp again. ]
I'm yours, Kaoru. Thank you for giving me a chance. I'll never let you regret it.
[Kaoru has never been touched quite like this. It's possible that no one else could do it. That it's because it's Kojiro that he's able to feel safe enough to be this vulnerable. He presses his face into Kojiro's hand, eyes wide as he takes in the words and slowly, slowly nods. He can let himself believe this, right? Kojiro has always been as good as his word. Kaoru won't find himself hurt in the end even if he gives himself over to this, even if he lifts his hips into the touch and lets the soft sighs escape into the space between them, allows himself to be open and honest about how much he wants this.
And god, does he ever want this, now that he's allowing himself to peer into this corner of his mind. Once he untangles all of the bitter jealousy and defeatism, there's something much more appealing there. It feels warm and bright in his chest.]
You had better make good on that promise. You know I'll kick you if you don't.
[ Not gonna happen. No way. He always told himself that if Kaoru ever gave him the opportunity, there wasn't a snowball's chance in hell he'd waste his shot. This is it. This is what he's waited for. This is what he never thought he could have. If he can't sweep Kaoru off his feet now, then Kojiro doesn't deserve to have him in the first place.
But there was a point to that question, initially. Kojiro asked for a reason, didn't he; if Kaoru had ever thought about it? About them? Kojiro's lips have wandered their way down Kaoru's stomach, tongue blazing a hot trail that cools in its wake, teeth creeping out to drag gentle welts into his waistline. Why was he asking--? ]
I always thought-- [ The words come between the press of gentle attention from his mouth. ] If you ever gave me a chance, I'd ruin you for anyone else. Make it so you can't feel anything but totally loved, and you'd never think about anyone else again.
[ Worship him. Drive out all the doubt, just like Kojiro said. And the way he's kissing Kaoru -- the slow play of his lips, leaving no part of Kaoru untouched -- is as close to diefic praise as Kaoru's ever seen him. He's cresting Kaoru's hip now, nosing into the cradle of his thigh, pausing for just moment to pull a little mark from the pale skin he finds there. ]
So let me know if I'm heading in the right direction for that. Okay?
[ That's the last thing Kojiro says before his lips close around Kaoru's cock, then take him in quick -- searing and wet velvet -- right down to the hilt. ]
[It's a little difficult to process the words when Kojiro's touch is so sweet and so sure, and when it's this mesmerising to see deep red bloom into his skin. Systems are overloaded. Kaoru is working at diminished capacity in trying to answer with anything that isn't a choked moan.
The word ruin has an enticing sort of edge to it. Kaoru has long thought that maybe something a little destructive was the only way to get him out of his head enough to let pleasure slip in. But he never imagined that ruin could look so much like adoration. That it could feel like--]
Fuck, Kojiro...!
[Before he knows it, he has two handfuls of thick hair, and he's tipping his head back to groan long and low at the ceiling about what it feels like for his cock to hit the back of Kojiro's throat. Alcohol is his friend for a lot of reasons, and one of them is preventing him from coming embarrassingly early.
Kojiro is his friend for a lot of reasons, too, and he never imagined that he'd be adding because his mouth feels like heaven on earth to the list. But life is unpredictable like that.]
[ Kaoru's hands are gripping his hair like a lifeline, and if Kojiro's mouth weren't so full, the notion might beg a sly grin. Still makes him laugh, though; a soft huff and a warm sound that thrills along Kaoru's cock as Kojiro's lips slide to the head again, then plunge straight back down. It's not like those words are foreign to him; he's heard it from Kaoru in varying degrees of annoyance and exasperation since they were old enough to swear. But never like this. Never on the edge of a moan, never a soft cry.
Kojiro's name, on Kaoru's lips like that? That's the best thing Kojiro's ever heard.
But Kaoru's thighs are right there, all pale and gorgeous and begging to be touched. Kojiro hooks his arms up underneath them, coaxes Kaoru's knees over his shoulders, just to have them that much closer. His hands are still wandering, covering Kaoru's legs, slipping up the back of them to cradle his ass and keep him steady. Because Kojiro's diligent; his mouth works Kaoru's cock like it's his job, tireless tongue and devouring lips, and all the while his eyes never leave Kaoru's face.
He wants to watch Kaoru like this forever. He wants Kaoru to have all the pleasure in the world, and he wants to know he's the one to bring it to him. ]
[Kaoru can feel Kojiro's laughter all the way to his core. God, he's so full of himself, isn't he? Kaoru would almost find that aggravating, if not for the fact that it's 100% earned. He knows exactly what he's doing. A blessing, because Kaoru really does get to turn off all his overthinking in favour of getting lost in the way big hands pull him into position like he's done this a hundred times. And maybe that's the power of Kojiro being the one who let himself think about this, the one who let himself really want it--if Kaoru had entertained any such thing for longer than a moment without immediately shoving it away, maybe it would be just as intuitive to work his fingers through Kojiro's hair without clinging for dear life, or hook his legs around Kojiro's shoulders without digging heels into his shoulderblades, every muscle pulled so tight that it feels like he might just snap. Because, fuck, is having Kojiro's hands on his ass and his mouth on his dick at the same time ever right on the edge of way too much.
He's vaguely aware that his legs are trembling like crazy. Some part of his mind is trying to remember how to feel embarrassed about that, pinned in place by the heat of Kojiro's gaze and no longer able to hold back the moans that keep spilling from his throat. Embarrassment has slid off to somewhere he can't quite reach it, though, and that is a whole other kind of bliss. He wants more, wants total oblivion. So he bucks his hips up desperately in search of it.]
[ Kaoru's legs are all but shaking him apart on either side of Kojiro's head, and that's another line item for Kojiro's brand new list of Things He Loves About Fucking Kaoru. It's another facet that doesn't quite match up to his imagination, because somehow, he'd never expected Kaoru to be so incredibly responsive to his touch. He keeps grasping tighter and pulling Kojiro closer, and fuck, Kojiro wishes he had words for exactly how it feels to be so needed. It's incredible. Kaoru is incredible.
Kojiro's mouth makes an absolutely obscene sound when he pulls Kaoru's cock free of it. Just for a few moments, just long enough to lean over to his bedside table and single-handedly fumble his way through spilling some lube into his palm. Then he's right back to task, right back between Kaoru's thighs, with the addition of slick fingers pressing beneath Kaoru to tease at his entrance. ]
How we feeling, beautiful?
[ Nice of Kojiro to check in, at least. Or make the effort. It's a miracle he manages that much, because Kaoru's hole is tight against his fingertips, and there's an impending promise of driving him so much farther out of his mind that Kojiro can't resist. He doesn't give Kaoru a chance to respond; half a breath later, he's devouring Kaoru's cock again in earnest, hot and wet and back to that same driving pace, just as his forefinger sinks slowly into Kaoru's body. ]
[He fully growls in protest at the sudden loss of Kojiro's mouth, which he is already so fully addicted to that he's sure he never wants to feel anything else every again in his life.
Or so he thinks, until he feels Kojiro's fingers there. Choked, frantic moans follow the initial sharp gasp, so he has no idea how Kojiro expects him to respond to that question with anything besides half-formed syllables that are almost a string of expletives.
And then he's surrounded by wet heat again, relentless, all the more overwhelming for the momentary break and the added sensation of being slowly pressed open—
The orgasm hits him so suddenly he doesn't have a chance for so much as a word of warning, and with such force that he feels almost as if he's left his body. He can't even tell if he's really saying Kojiro's name, or just shaping his lips around it again and again through each shuddering breath.]
[ And fuck if that's not the hottest thing Kojiro's ever seen in his entire life.
It's a hell of an upward trajectory, because he swears he's had the carbon-copy same thought at least a hundred times over tonight. But this is something entirely different. Staring up at Kaoru from between his legs, watching him come apart, seeing all those tightly-bound threads unravel 'til he can't even find his words; composure lost, because of Kojiro. And now he's silently praying to every deity he knows the name for, pleading to find some shred of patience left within himself. Because Kaoru's flooding him just as surely as he's spilling into Kojiro's mouth, and Kojiro's drinking him all down -- literally and figuratively -- and it's really too fucking much. ]
Fuck, Kaoru. [ He murmurs against the inside of Kaoru's thigh. ] You--
[ Kaoru's on his back before Kojiro can elaborate. He can taste himself when Kojiro captures his lips again, feel the weight of Kojiro's cock hard and heavy against his hip, and then the careful pressure of a second finger slipping into him. ]
Always wanted to see you like that. [ It's almost a growl against Kaoru's mouth, strained with lust and gravid with sincerity. ] Wanna see you like that over and over.
[He tries to glare when Kojiro pushes him down, tries to hate that he's being taken advantage of when there isn't enough strength in his body to fight back, but he just can't pull it off convincingly. So, fuck it. Fine. He'll kiss back and press his hips up into Kojiro's hardness with whatever strength he can muster, and appreciate that being temporarily drained of tension means that those thick fingers are pressing into him that much more easily.]
You're getting greedy. I want to see you too, you know.
[It's hypocrisy of the highest order, but he doesn't care. His own greed drives him to kiss Kojiro like they're running out of time, like tasting his mouth is the last memory he'll ever be able to make. Kaoru will get what he wants, because he (nearly) always does. Because he won't rest until he's sure he's the best Kojiro has ever had.]
[ Kojiro's always been selfless. Not that he ever thinks of himself that way, but no one can argue that Kojiro provides. He gives. He lets people take and take from him, and he never asks for anything in return. So maybe he's allowed to be a little greedy, just with this. He'll bully more and more pleasure into Kaoru, just to see that beautiful face when he falls apart, and he'll do it unrepenting. He deserves that much.
But Kaoru's not wrong either. He gets what he wants, and to that end, being Kojiro's lover will be absolute hell on his self control. He'll have everything he wants and so much more, no questions asked. Kojiro might give him more than he can rightly handle.
Case in point, there is no reason for Kojiro to move his fingerpads so directly within Kaoru, no sense in such an unmerciful attack, no kindness in overwhelming Kaoru when he's still recovering from his last end. But here he is, working Kaoru open on two fingers that haven't stopped stroking those raw nerves since they first pushed into him. And all the while, that smile never leaves his face. ]
Need your help with this part, sweetheart.
[ Kojiro gets an arm under Kaoru's shoulders, then uses the leverage to switch their places. With Kaoru over him -- legs splayed over his hips -- it'll be easier. Easier for Kojiro to kick his own pants away, easier withdraw from Kaoru's body and thoroughly cover himself with the remaining lube, easier to press the thick head of his cock to Kaoru's entrance instead. But from there, he stills, and he waits. Bated breath, aching to bury in deep, but restraining that need for Kaoru's sake. ]
You decide when. Go slow. Get yourself on. And lemme know when you're ready for me to move.
[Yes, Kojiro certainly is the type who gives. Especially now, when he acquiesces so easily to Kaoru’s demands with no trace of the usual put-upon sighs. Maybe Kaoru should see the danger in this, in just how deep he’s getting himself. But there’s no room for that, given Kojiro’s continued relentless assault on his senses.
There’s not even room for him to remember to resist or complain when Kojiro is manhandling him like he’s some kind of weightless ragdoll, again. He’ll have to find the appropriate anger for that later, when he isn’t so preoccupied with Kojiro pressed hard and slick against him. Almost definitely too soon—Kaoru’s legs still feel weak, like one false move will leave him trembling out of control again—but defiance and curiosity team up to make him start to press down almost immediately anyway.
He hardly has to move for all of the air to be knocked out of his lungs. The stretch is searing and sweet, and makes his toes curl uselessly as he tries and fails to force his body to move even an inch further.]
Shit…!
[He bites his lip, braces his hands on Kojiro’s shoulders to try to centre himself. This big, stupid body that does nothing but draw in a never-ending stream of girls, with their soft faces and red-painted lips. But now it’s Kaoru smoothing his palms over so much sunkissed skin, mapping out the swells of hard muscle. And he’s going to keep it that way. He just has to remember how to breathe.
In, out. Until his body is accustomed enough to the burn that he can coax his legs out of being locked in place. Slowly, slowly, he eases himself down on Kojiro’s cock. Keeps himself breathing, even though it comes out shuddering and harsh. Past the point where Kojiro’s fingers took him apart, until he’s fully seated and filled impossibly full and deep. Tears sting at the corners of his eyes. Ecstasy crackles through his nerves. He tenses and relaxes once, twice, three times. Trying to get used to the sensation overload, but also deliberately teasing as best as he can right now.]
Focus on Kaoru's command. On the countdown, on the numbers. That's all he has to do. Not the breath that's ripped from his lungs the moment Kaoru's body parts for him. Not the helpless moan he stifles when Kaoru seats himself completely. Not the stutter in his hips when Kaoru shudders around him, clenches and pulls, so tight he's seeing stars and so hot he's going mad.
None of that. The numbers.
Four... Three...
Five seconds can't be enough, but Kojiro knows better than to question Kaoru's judgement. He won't. He can't. Not when self-control is monopolizing every misfiring end of his last fucking nerve. His hands cover Kaoru's where they've spread over his chest, fingers curl beneath his palms. Grounding. Breathe, baby, he whispers, and then gasps in a slow breath himself.
Two...
So close, so close, so fucking close. The numbers. Two. So close... Two pale knees bracketing his hips. Two hands spreading fire over his skin. So fucking close... Two eyes, stricken; liquid gold to melt straight through him.
One.
Kojiro surges forward, hooks a hand behind Kaoru's neck, and crushes their lips together again. It's all teeth and tongue. He consumes Kaoru, devours him, thoroughly eviscerates him with a kiss. Maybe that'll be enough to anchor Kaoru against the first careful, firm push of Kojiro's hips. ]
[Kaoru imagines he can feel, almost hear the energy buzzing under Kojiro’s skin, waiting to be released. It’s in his big hands blanketing Kaoru’s own, and in the warm timbre of his voice. Potential energy, ready to become kinetic.
The numbers are comforting, in this moment teetering on the edge. One last hold on familiarity before Kaoru inevitably takes on more than he can comfortably handle. Again. Deliberately. But Kojiro is here with him. It’ll be okay.
He pulls as much air into his lungs as he can, and it’s a good thing too, because in the next moment Kojiro crashes into him and drags him under like a tidal wave. His cries have nowhere to go, stifled against that bruising kiss. It’s definitely too much. Sensory overload, sweet pain hitting so deep that in the moment, Kaoru is convinced he’ll never stop feeling it. He isn’t even aware of his fingernails scraping down Kojiro’s chest, nor the tears stinging at the corner of his eyes. Too much, too much… and he only wants more.]
[ Kojiro's got a mean streak. It's one of his best-kept secrets, but Kaoru's known him long enough to spot it. He's kind and generous right up until it's time to punch someone in the face, and then he's brutal and precise in his execution. Kaoru can see it now, when Kojiro tips his head back to catch Kaoru's gaze again. He can see the subtle spark in Kojiro's eyes, like sunlight flashing behind amber, hard above the sudden set of his jaw. It's not anger. Hunger might be a better word, but it doesn't feel nice by any stretch.
He can't help it. Kaoru's too pretty like this, all muffled cries and choked tears. And if it were anyone else in the world, Kojiro would slam on the breaks. But he knows Kaoru too well for that. He knows that hurt -- real hurt -- doesn't look like this, and that his own instincts wouldn't allow a hurt like that to happen. So as much as Kaoru wants more, Kojiro wants to give it to him; wants to overwhelm him completely, wants to turn him out, wants to leave his mark so thoroughly that Kaoru will never settle for anything (anyone) less again. ]
Look at you. [ It's practically a growl as Kojiro's cock eases, and then plunges deep. ] Never seen that face on you before.
[ Again, his hips piston, again he fills Kaoru. It's not a rhythm yet, not a pace. Not really. Just quick, firm pushes to ease Kaoru into it. It could be called a mercy, if he weren't so deliberate about it. ]
Gorgeous. Most beautiful thing I've ever seen. [ Kojiro's hand tightens in Kaoru's hair, just enough to get his attention, to hold his gaze. ]
[That would probably sound a lot more convincing if it weren't bitten out between moans. But he's in no state to be worrying about that right now. It makes him feel crazy, seeing Kojiro like this. Burning inside with a fire that Kaoru wants licking his skin, scorching through to his core. He can taste it in each firm thrust that lights up his nerves from the inside out. It's in the sweet pull at his scalp. In everything he wants so much more than he should. He's supposed to be the rational one, damn it! And yet he keeps contradicting himself:]
If you do any damage to my hair, I will kill you in your sleep.
[But even as he says it he tips his head back into Kojiro's grip, and rolls his hips with a deliberate determination that sends him gasping for air.]
[ Kojiro tugs, gently, a firm handful right at the roots to tease at the threat. There are some boundaries he's pushing against here, testing the threshold of acceptability, twisting knots into a few assumed notions he'd kept about Kaoru. But more than that, he's always wanted to do this; ached to bury himself so deeply into Kaoru in so many ways. Through his hair, into his body, under his skin, and right up against his last fucking nerve.
After all, doesn't he want Kaoru crazy for him? Sense, reason, logic; they don't need it here. Kaoru doesn't need it here, and that's the whole point of this. To get him out of his own head. There's safety in Kojiro's arms, and Kaoru's loved beyond anything he's ever known. It's okay to just not think for a little while, in the presence of all that adoration. ]
Why would I do a thing like that?
[ Kaoru's tight, searing; a sinful clutch and grasp, and Kojiro could sink into this forever. It's all warring notions of chaos and peace. Taking Kaoru apart sounds every bit as appealing as burying himself deep and staying there, still, just to memorize the sensation. But in the end, Kaoru's pushing against him, and the response is almost instinctive.
Kojiro's grip shifts, drifts down from Kaoru's hair to grasp wide over the back of his neck. It's an anchor, a ballast to steady him against the barrage that comes next. More, harder, faster; Kojiro's cock drives up into Kaoru in firm snaps of his hips, almost a desperate pace. And this isn't gonna last. It can't. Because he's fucking Kaoru, he's looking into Kaoru's eyes, and-- ]
I love you. [ It's deep, breathy, hitched in gasps against Kaoru's mouth. ]
[He really thought he knew Kojiro so well. That there was nothing that could surprise him at this point. But if he'd even tried to imagine that his stupid best friend could be like this, the fantasy surely would have fallen apart before he could have filled in every parameter to run the simulation properly in his mind. Another unfair advantage: Kojiro has had one hell of a head start, and surely that’s why he can say those words like they already belong to him. Like he doesn’t have to test the shape of them on his tongue before they tumble forth.
This Kojiro, the one right here and now who gazes into his eyes with unguarded devotion, who sinks into him again and again like he wants to stay there forever… he wants to line him up next to the Kojiro who flings unimaginative insults at him nearly as often as he uses Kaoru’s actual name. Yes, he could line them up just so, and they’d probably fit together like perfect little puzzle pieces. But they’re so hard to reconcile at the same time.
Kaoru grits his teeth against a high moan, and feels the incongruent bits and pieces build into frustration in his gut. Kojiro, the one he’s always known, is childish and impulsive. He teases Kaoru for his hobbies and his fastidiousness. He forgets the crucial, intricate details of shared memories no matter how many times Kaoru reminds him. Sometimes it all makes Kaoru so mad, he could just—]
I love you too.
[He’s sure he means to add “you fucking moron,” but the words do not come. Maybe this is a mark of growing older. Maybe he’s losing his edge.]
[ The thing about an edge is, there's always a flip side to it; the flat of a blade or the spine of a knife. There's always some space for a sheen, some smoother planes to support the cut. Kaoru can keep all the edge he wants. He can spit venom and acerbic quips, concrete skin and razor tongue. It just gives him -- them -- more facets. Kojiro loves him for all of it, barbs and beauty, poison and perfection. Wouldn't have him any other way.
It's not like Kojiro's guilty of less, and the bickering will never stop. Kaoru hasn't even managed to stop bitching while they're fucking, and that's so ridiculously hot, because-- Shit, now Kojiro's head is full of all the different ways he could shut him up.
I love you is one of the ways, apparently. It's still tripping some kind of short circuit in Kaoru, turning him sweet for a fraction of a second. Fucking and fighting really are ridiculously similar with Kaoru, because Kojiro moves on that moment of weakness, buries his face against Kaoru's shoulder and drags teeth firm down the side of his neck. Mark him up, bruise him more; primitive, mean, but Kaoru is his.
Kojiro keeps his teeth sunk in, wraps an arm around Kaoru's shoulders to pull him along as he falls back against the sheets. It's a tight angle, but Kojiro's thighs aren't just for launching himself off cliff faces. With his heels anchored into the mattress, he can drive up quick and hard into Kaoru, tilted to stroke him inside until he sees stars.
Fuck, he's so fucking close. ]
Gonna come for me again, beautiful? [ A growl through grit teeth against Kaoru's ear. ] C'mon, I wanna see you make that face...
[His voice sounds so ragged to his own ears, moans that are torn to shreds at the sensation of Kojiro’s teeth carving into his skin. He longs to write his own name into Kojiro, too, and raking his fingernails down his chest and arms hardly feels adequate. Kaoru wants to be under his skin like ink, indelible. He wants to stay in his deepest places, the way Kojiro is lighting up Kaoru’s every nerve right now.
When Kojiro pushes up, Kaoru doubles down, grabs messy handfuls of Kojiro’s stupid hair and fights against every renewed wave of pleasure that threatens to pull away the last of his control.]
You… first…!
[It’s a demand. Defiant. Maybe under other circumstances, he would let Kojiro make him come again and again before humouring any request to have anything in return. But here in this moment, the spirit of competition rises in him the way it so often does when he can feel Kojiro close to him. Like hell is he going to let go before he makes Kojiro fall apart. No fucking way. For all the praise, Kaoru still feels like he has something to prove. Something about how good he can really be.]
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He almost wants to argue, because it would be easy and familiar. He has no idea how to navigate Kojiro taking responsibility for everything, or gently asking for permission to do everything Kaoru never let himself hope for. That seems like a major oversight now--not at least considering a possibility, no matter how slim, no matter how much it made his chest ache. At least he'd maybe he could have been able to feel less clumsy working a hand between their bodies to touch Kojiro's erection through fabric that feels so, so thin.]
Of course I want you, idiot.
[Then again, maybe Kaoru is the idiot whose toes are curling just from touching a dick for two seconds. And for letting Kojiro go on and on like every bit of the responsibility is his own.
But that's a matter for later. No more thinking. Just expressing pent-up desire through panting breaths and careful strokes of fingers pressed tight between the two of them.]
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Or appreciation. The need tightens in him, winds lower with every pass of Kaoru's hand over his cock. The harder he gets, the more evident it becomes that Kojiro is well-proportioned, thick and stiff in Kaoru's grip, practically throbbing already through the pleasured sigh that he breathes against Kaoru's chest. The sensation pushes through him so softly, arrests his thought, stills his breath, and--
Fuck, he wanted to take his time and enjoy this, but that's quickly turning into a non-option. He needs Kaoru, now. And if this is happening, it's not happening on the fucking couch. ]
Hold on to me, gorgeous.
[ Kojiro doesn't wait for Kaoru to react. He hooks a forearm under Kaoru's ass, and lifts him along when he stands from the couch. Then it's down the hall, to the bedroom, where Kojiro lowers Kaoru to the end of his bed, and drops to his knees on the floor in front of him. It's like fire and ice between them, cooling one moment only to fan to inferno the next. Like now, with Kojiro reclaiming his lips like they're breath, like they're life, invading Kaoru's mouth with his tongue, and guiding Kaoru's hips up to pull away his briefs with both hands. ]
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Especially because, if there was some small part of Kaoru that was also doubting whether this is too good to be true, it’s blown out of the water when he can feel for himself the way Kojiro is reacting. It’s not like that big stupid gorgeous oversized body can lie.
Pout and protest as he might about being manhandled and carried(he is capable of waking, thank you very much!), he still lets himself be deposited on the bed, still shifts to let Kojiro lay him bare as he gets every bit of breath kissed out of him. More things that he can blame on the wine later, even though said wine isn’t preventing him from being so hard that it aches. Nor from spreading his legs before he knows what he’s doing. Okay, so maybe it’s been a while, so sue him.]
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Kaoru gets what Kaoru wants, and it's Kojiro's pleasure to give it. But it's too good to rush, and Kojiro sits back when he drops Kaoru's briefs to the floor. He has to take a second to drink this in, to take in every piece of Kaoru he's never been allowed to admire before. Jesus, he's fucking beautiful. Work of art, statuesque on Kojiro's bedcovers. Kojiro's fixated on the aesthetic of his hands on Kaoru's body, strong and dark against the pale perfection. They wander over the new territory, staking their own claim, touching Kaoru with careful hands and greedy eyes. ]
Kaoru... you're more beautiful than I imagined.
[ The words bring a hot flush to Kojiro's face, and there's something so satisfying about that. A rosy blush that only darkens when his lips shower kiss after kiss down Kaoru's chin, down his throat, to his chest, and then drift to distraction at Kaoru's nipples. His teeth catch across one, tease with his lips and then worry between a bite until it hardens, and he's satisfied to move across to the other. ]
I thought about this. About how I'd make you feel good, if you ever let me. Did you think about it?
[ A question like this, as Kojiro pushes a hand between Kaoru's legs, and thick fingers curl around Kaoru's cock. ]
WELCOME BACK this was so delightful to see in my inbox =']
He flushes hot at the compliment, and even hotter at Kojiro working his mouth over sensitive nipples. It makes him gasp and arch his back. Oh god, Kojiro is going to uncover every weakness too quickly. Kaoru is in such deep trouble. Absolutely done for.]
How could--ah! How... could I think about it? [His thoughts are scattered, fragmented. He can't gather them enough to consider whether maybe he shouldn't be this honest.] I didn't want to think about what you could do. I didn't want to think about what you might be doing to someone else.
[But Kojiro did. He imagined doing this... when? It always seemed like he had plenty of distractions. One outlet after another for those sorts of thoughts. Where in all of that was Kaoru?]
Ty ty <3 bless your patience
And too much came with it: memory and regret and fantasy, all heavy and heart-rending and achy. What Kojiro imagined was always nebulous; fragments of need, broken and lacking for all that his memory couldn't supply, and they don't measure up. Not to this. Not to the addictive responsiveness of Kaoru's body, or the sweet music of his quiet gasping, or the unparalleled softness of his skin under Kojiro's touch. So maybe he doesn't have a good imagination, because this feels decadent, and Kojiro's indulging in as much as Kaoru will allow him.
But that admission-- It's hard to hear. That Kaoru was aching for him just as much -- that Kojiro caused some of that hurt -- is altogether too gravid to brush off. He reaches up to cradle Kaoru's chin in one hand, guides him down so he can catch his gaze and hold it, even while his other hand languidly strokes Kaoru's cock. ]
You have me now. Okay? Hundred percent. I'm here. We're here. I'm yours.
[ Kojiro's grip is hot and tight around Kaoru's arousal. Steady; a slow caress from hilt to head and back again, toying with different angles and pressures until he can find the one that makes Kaoru gasp again. ]
I'm yours, Kaoru. Thank you for giving me a chance. I'll never let you regret it.
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And god, does he ever want this, now that he's allowing himself to peer into this corner of his mind. Once he untangles all of the bitter jealousy and defeatism, there's something much more appealing there. It feels warm and bright in his chest.]
You had better make good on that promise. You know I'll kick you if you don't.
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[ Not gonna happen. No way. He always told himself that if Kaoru ever gave him the opportunity, there wasn't a snowball's chance in hell he'd waste his shot. This is it. This is what he's waited for. This is what he never thought he could have. If he can't sweep Kaoru off his feet now, then Kojiro doesn't deserve to have him in the first place.
But there was a point to that question, initially. Kojiro asked for a reason, didn't he; if Kaoru had ever thought about it? About them? Kojiro's lips have wandered their way down Kaoru's stomach, tongue blazing a hot trail that cools in its wake, teeth creeping out to drag gentle welts into his waistline. Why was he asking--? ]
I always thought-- [ The words come between the press of gentle attention from his mouth. ] If you ever gave me a chance, I'd ruin you for anyone else. Make it so you can't feel anything but totally loved, and you'd never think about anyone else again.
[ Worship him. Drive out all the doubt, just like Kojiro said. And the way he's kissing Kaoru -- the slow play of his lips, leaving no part of Kaoru untouched -- is as close to diefic praise as Kaoru's ever seen him. He's cresting Kaoru's hip now, nosing into the cradle of his thigh, pausing for just moment to pull a little mark from the pale skin he finds there. ]
So let me know if I'm heading in the right direction for that. Okay?
[ That's the last thing Kojiro says before his lips close around Kaoru's cock, then take him in quick -- searing and wet velvet -- right down to the hilt. ]
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The word ruin has an enticing sort of edge to it. Kaoru has long thought that maybe something a little destructive was the only way to get him out of his head enough to let pleasure slip in. But he never imagined that ruin could look so much like adoration. That it could feel like--]
Fuck, Kojiro...!
[Before he knows it, he has two handfuls of thick hair, and he's tipping his head back to groan long and low at the ceiling about what it feels like for his cock to hit the back of Kojiro's throat. Alcohol is his friend for a lot of reasons, and one of them is preventing him from coming embarrassingly early.
Kojiro is his friend for a lot of reasons, too, and he never imagined that he'd be adding because his mouth feels like heaven on earth to the list. But life is unpredictable like that.]
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Kojiro's name, on Kaoru's lips like that? That's the best thing Kojiro's ever heard.
But Kaoru's thighs are right there, all pale and gorgeous and begging to be touched. Kojiro hooks his arms up underneath them, coaxes Kaoru's knees over his shoulders, just to have them that much closer. His hands are still wandering, covering Kaoru's legs, slipping up the back of them to cradle his ass and keep him steady. Because Kojiro's diligent; his mouth works Kaoru's cock like it's his job, tireless tongue and devouring lips, and all the while his eyes never leave Kaoru's face.
He wants to watch Kaoru like this forever. He wants Kaoru to have all the pleasure in the world, and he wants to know he's the one to bring it to him. ]
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He's vaguely aware that his legs are trembling like crazy. Some part of his mind is trying to remember how to feel embarrassed about that, pinned in place by the heat of Kojiro's gaze and no longer able to hold back the moans that keep spilling from his throat. Embarrassment has slid off to somewhere he can't quite reach it, though, and that is a whole other kind of bliss. He wants more, wants total oblivion. So he bucks his hips up desperately in search of it.]
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Kojiro's mouth makes an absolutely obscene sound when he pulls Kaoru's cock free of it. Just for a few moments, just long enough to lean over to his bedside table and single-handedly fumble his way through spilling some lube into his palm. Then he's right back to task, right back between Kaoru's thighs, with the addition of slick fingers pressing beneath Kaoru to tease at his entrance. ]
How we feeling, beautiful?
[ Nice of Kojiro to check in, at least. Or make the effort. It's a miracle he manages that much, because Kaoru's hole is tight against his fingertips, and there's an impending promise of driving him so much farther out of his mind that Kojiro can't resist. He doesn't give Kaoru a chance to respond; half a breath later, he's devouring Kaoru's cock again in earnest, hot and wet and back to that same driving pace, just as his forefinger sinks slowly into Kaoru's body. ]
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Or so he thinks, until he feels Kojiro's fingers there. Choked, frantic moans follow the initial sharp gasp, so he has no idea how Kojiro expects him to respond to that question with anything besides half-formed syllables that are almost a string of expletives.
And then he's surrounded by wet heat again, relentless, all the more overwhelming for the momentary break and the added sensation of being slowly pressed open—
The orgasm hits him so suddenly he doesn't have a chance for so much as a word of warning, and with such force that he feels almost as if he's left his body. He can't even tell if he's really saying Kojiro's name, or just shaping his lips around it again and again through each shuddering breath.]
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It's a hell of an upward trajectory, because he swears he's had the carbon-copy same thought at least a hundred times over tonight. But this is something entirely different. Staring up at Kaoru from between his legs, watching him come apart, seeing all those tightly-bound threads unravel 'til he can't even find his words; composure lost, because of Kojiro. And now he's silently praying to every deity he knows the name for, pleading to find some shred of patience left within himself. Because Kaoru's flooding him just as surely as he's spilling into Kojiro's mouth, and Kojiro's drinking him all down -- literally and figuratively -- and it's really too fucking much. ]
Fuck, Kaoru. [ He murmurs against the inside of Kaoru's thigh. ] You--
[ Kaoru's on his back before Kojiro can elaborate. He can taste himself when Kojiro captures his lips again, feel the weight of Kojiro's cock hard and heavy against his hip, and then the careful pressure of a second finger slipping into him. ]
Always wanted to see you like that. [ It's almost a growl against Kaoru's mouth, strained with lust and gravid with sincerity. ] Wanna see you like that over and over.
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You're getting greedy. I want to see you too, you know.
[It's hypocrisy of the highest order, but he doesn't care. His own greed drives him to kiss Kojiro like they're running out of time, like tasting his mouth is the last memory he'll ever be able to make. Kaoru will get what he wants, because he (nearly) always does. Because he won't rest until he's sure he's the best Kojiro has ever had.]
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[ Kojiro's always been selfless. Not that he ever thinks of himself that way, but no one can argue that Kojiro provides. He gives. He lets people take and take from him, and he never asks for anything in return. So maybe he's allowed to be a little greedy, just with this. He'll bully more and more pleasure into Kaoru, just to see that beautiful face when he falls apart, and he'll do it unrepenting. He deserves that much.
But Kaoru's not wrong either. He gets what he wants, and to that end, being Kojiro's lover will be absolute hell on his self control. He'll have everything he wants and so much more, no questions asked. Kojiro might give him more than he can rightly handle.
Case in point, there is no reason for Kojiro to move his fingerpads so directly within Kaoru, no sense in such an unmerciful attack, no kindness in overwhelming Kaoru when he's still recovering from his last end. But here he is, working Kaoru open on two fingers that haven't stopped stroking those raw nerves since they first pushed into him. And all the while, that smile never leaves his face. ]
Need your help with this part, sweetheart.
[ Kojiro gets an arm under Kaoru's shoulders, then uses the leverage to switch their places. With Kaoru over him -- legs splayed over his hips -- it'll be easier. Easier for Kojiro to kick his own pants away, easier withdraw from Kaoru's body and thoroughly cover himself with the remaining lube, easier to press the thick head of his cock to Kaoru's entrance instead. But from there, he stills, and he waits. Bated breath, aching to bury in deep, but restraining that need for Kaoru's sake. ]
You decide when. Go slow. Get yourself on. And lemme know when you're ready for me to move.
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There’s not even room for him to remember to resist or complain when Kojiro is manhandling him like he’s some kind of weightless ragdoll, again. He’ll have to find the appropriate anger for that later, when he isn’t so preoccupied with Kojiro pressed hard and slick against him. Almost definitely too soon—Kaoru’s legs still feel weak, like one false move will leave him trembling out of control again—but defiance and curiosity team up to make him start to press down almost immediately anyway.
He hardly has to move for all of the air to be knocked out of his lungs. The stretch is searing and sweet, and makes his toes curl uselessly as he tries and fails to force his body to move even an inch further.]
Shit…!
[He bites his lip, braces his hands on Kojiro’s shoulders to try to centre himself. This big, stupid body that does nothing but draw in a never-ending stream of girls, with their soft faces and red-painted lips. But now it’s Kaoru smoothing his palms over so much sunkissed skin, mapping out the swells of hard muscle. And he’s going to keep it that way. He just has to remember how to breathe.
In, out. Until his body is accustomed enough to the burn that he can coax his legs out of being locked in place. Slowly, slowly, he eases himself down on Kojiro’s cock. Keeps himself breathing, even though it comes out shuddering and harsh. Past the point where Kojiro’s fingers took him apart, until he’s fully seated and filled impossibly full and deep. Tears sting at the corners of his eyes. Ecstasy crackles through his nerves. He tenses and relaxes once, twice, three times. Trying to get used to the sensation overload, but also deliberately teasing as best as he can right now.]
Give me ten… no, five seconds. Then you can move.
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Focus on Kaoru's command. On the countdown, on the numbers. That's all he has to do. Not the breath that's ripped from his lungs the moment Kaoru's body parts for him. Not the helpless moan he stifles when Kaoru seats himself completely. Not the stutter in his hips when Kaoru shudders around him, clenches and pulls, so tight he's seeing stars and so hot he's going mad.
None of that. The numbers.
Four... Three...
Five seconds can't be enough, but Kojiro knows better than to question Kaoru's judgement. He won't. He can't. Not when self-control is monopolizing every misfiring end of his last fucking nerve. His hands cover Kaoru's where they've spread over his chest, fingers curl beneath his palms. Grounding. Breathe, baby, he whispers, and then gasps in a slow breath himself.
Two...
So close, so close, so fucking close. The numbers. Two. So close... Two pale knees bracketing his hips. Two hands spreading fire over his skin. So fucking close... Two eyes, stricken; liquid gold to melt straight through him.
One.
Kojiro surges forward, hooks a hand behind Kaoru's neck, and crushes their lips together again. It's all teeth and tongue. He consumes Kaoru, devours him, thoroughly eviscerates him with a kiss. Maybe that'll be enough to anchor Kaoru against the first careful, firm push of Kojiro's hips. ]
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The numbers are comforting, in this moment teetering on the edge. One last hold on familiarity before Kaoru inevitably takes on more than he can comfortably handle. Again. Deliberately. But Kojiro is here with him. It’ll be okay.
He pulls as much air into his lungs as he can, and it’s a good thing too, because in the next moment Kojiro crashes into him and drags him under like a tidal wave. His cries have nowhere to go, stifled against that bruising kiss. It’s definitely too much. Sensory overload, sweet pain hitting so deep that in the moment, Kaoru is convinced he’ll never stop feeling it. He isn’t even aware of his fingernails scraping down Kojiro’s chest, nor the tears stinging at the corner of his eyes. Too much, too much… and he only wants more.]
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He can't help it. Kaoru's too pretty like this, all muffled cries and choked tears. And if it were anyone else in the world, Kojiro would slam on the breaks. But he knows Kaoru too well for that. He knows that hurt -- real hurt -- doesn't look like this, and that his own instincts wouldn't allow a hurt like that to happen. So as much as Kaoru wants more, Kojiro wants to give it to him; wants to overwhelm him completely, wants to turn him out, wants to leave his mark so thoroughly that Kaoru will never settle for anything (anyone) less again. ]
Look at you. [ It's practically a growl as Kojiro's cock eases, and then plunges deep. ] Never seen that face on you before.
[ Again, his hips piston, again he fills Kaoru. It's not a rhythm yet, not a pace. Not really. Just quick, firm pushes to ease Kaoru into it. It could be called a mercy, if he weren't so deliberate about it. ]
Gorgeous. Most beautiful thing I've ever seen. [ Kojiro's hand tightens in Kaoru's hair, just enough to get his attention, to hold his gaze. ]
You gonna show me more?
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[That would probably sound a lot more convincing if it weren't bitten out between moans. But he's in no state to be worrying about that right now. It makes him feel crazy, seeing Kojiro like this. Burning inside with a fire that Kaoru wants licking his skin, scorching through to his core. He can taste it in each firm thrust that lights up his nerves from the inside out. It's in the sweet pull at his scalp. In everything he wants so much more than he should. He's supposed to be the rational one, damn it! And yet he keeps contradicting himself:]
If you do any damage to my hair, I will kill you in your sleep.
[But even as he says it he tips his head back into Kojiro's grip, and rolls his hips with a deliberate determination that sends him gasping for air.]
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[ Kojiro tugs, gently, a firm handful right at the roots to tease at the threat. There are some boundaries he's pushing against here, testing the threshold of acceptability, twisting knots into a few assumed notions he'd kept about Kaoru. But more than that, he's always wanted to do this; ached to bury himself so deeply into Kaoru in so many ways. Through his hair, into his body, under his skin, and right up against his last fucking nerve.
After all, doesn't he want Kaoru crazy for him? Sense, reason, logic; they don't need it here. Kaoru doesn't need it here, and that's the whole point of this. To get him out of his own head. There's safety in Kojiro's arms, and Kaoru's loved beyond anything he's ever known. It's okay to just not think for a little while, in the presence of all that adoration. ]
Why would I do a thing like that?
[ Kaoru's tight, searing; a sinful clutch and grasp, and Kojiro could sink into this forever. It's all warring notions of chaos and peace. Taking Kaoru apart sounds every bit as appealing as burying himself deep and staying there, still, just to memorize the sensation. But in the end, Kaoru's pushing against him, and the response is almost instinctive.
Kojiro's grip shifts, drifts down from Kaoru's hair to grasp wide over the back of his neck. It's an anchor, a ballast to steady him against the barrage that comes next. More, harder, faster; Kojiro's cock drives up into Kaoru in firm snaps of his hips, almost a desperate pace. And this isn't gonna last. It can't. Because he's fucking Kaoru, he's looking into Kaoru's eyes, and-- ]
I love you. [ It's deep, breathy, hitched in gasps against Kaoru's mouth. ]
I love you, Kaoru.
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This Kojiro, the one right here and now who gazes into his eyes with unguarded devotion, who sinks into him again and again like he wants to stay there forever… he wants to line him up next to the Kojiro who flings unimaginative insults at him nearly as often as he uses Kaoru’s actual name. Yes, he could line them up just so, and they’d probably fit together like perfect little puzzle pieces. But they’re so hard to reconcile at the same time.
Kaoru grits his teeth against a high moan, and feels the incongruent bits and pieces build into frustration in his gut. Kojiro, the one he’s always known, is childish and impulsive. He teases Kaoru for his hobbies and his fastidiousness. He forgets the crucial, intricate details of shared memories no matter how many times Kaoru reminds him. Sometimes it all makes Kaoru so mad, he could just—]
I love you too.
[He’s sure he means to add “you fucking moron,” but the words do not come. Maybe this is a mark of growing older. Maybe he’s losing his edge.]
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It's not like Kojiro's guilty of less, and the bickering will never stop. Kaoru hasn't even managed to stop bitching while they're fucking, and that's so ridiculously hot, because-- Shit, now Kojiro's head is full of all the different ways he could shut him up.
I love you is one of the ways, apparently. It's still tripping some kind of short circuit in Kaoru, turning him sweet for a fraction of a second. Fucking and fighting really are ridiculously similar with Kaoru, because Kojiro moves on that moment of weakness, buries his face against Kaoru's shoulder and drags teeth firm down the side of his neck. Mark him up, bruise him more; primitive, mean, but Kaoru is his.
Kojiro keeps his teeth sunk in, wraps an arm around Kaoru's shoulders to pull him along as he falls back against the sheets. It's a tight angle, but Kojiro's thighs aren't just for launching himself off cliff faces. With his heels anchored into the mattress, he can drive up quick and hard into Kaoru, tilted to stroke him inside until he sees stars.
Fuck, he's so fucking close. ]
Gonna come for me again, beautiful? [ A growl through grit teeth against Kaoru's ear. ] C'mon, I wanna see you make that face...
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When Kojiro pushes up, Kaoru doubles down, grabs messy handfuls of Kojiro’s stupid hair and fights against every renewed wave of pleasure that threatens to pull away the last of his control.]
You… first…!
[It’s a demand. Defiant. Maybe under other circumstances, he would let Kojiro make him come again and again before humouring any request to have anything in return. But here in this moment, the spirit of competition rises in him the way it so often does when he can feel Kojiro close to him. Like hell is he going to let go before he makes Kojiro fall apart. No fucking way. For all the praise, Kaoru still feels like he has something to prove. Something about how good he can really be.]
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this can probably be the bow on this thread, if you're good with that